Dizzy

i proposed for a visa to visit america for an office business trip yesterday, and got denied after merely asked two questions.

URGH!!!!

apparently two questions are enough to sum up who i am as a person, and that person is someone who would bail-indonesia-and-stay-in-america-illegally-and-peel-my-skin-off-working-as-a-waitress-until-i-managed-to-seduce-or-hypnotize-an-american-to-marry-me-and-got-myself-a-frickin-greencard.

URGH!! two questions! didn’t even have time to catch my breath!

p.s what are those two questions, you say?

do you even want to ask me that?

this question has been lingering in my mind for quite some time… would you care to share some of your thoughts with me?

if you HAVE to choose, which one would you rather listen to?

• the person who talk about other people all the time, or
• the person who talk about themselves all the time?

and why?

please respond but don’t say you’d rather don’t listen to either.

thank you very much, really really appreciate your time and your feedback.

i’m hoping this can shed some new light to my judgements.

Apparently, my previous entry caused much more trouble than
what it was really worth.

Therefore, I deleted it and here I would like to apologize
to any unrelated party that feels offended by it and for any damage that it had
caused.

I’m sorry, I honestly meant no harm.

So… to avoid any future trouble repetitions, that entry
shall be the last of my personal thought you will ever see in this blog.

Point completely taken. My apologies.

My friend showed me a picture of her kissing another girl
the other day. Other people who saw it too were mostly like, “Oh, you kissed a
girl.”

That’s it.

Oh, just so you know, my friend isn’t gay. In fact she’s in
a steady relationship with a very nice boyfriend. In fact she was with him when
the event occurred, so there’s nothing wrong with that.

I actually have absolutely no problem with her actions
whatsoever, but I was puzzled by another matter. So am gonna ask you guys a
question that’s been lingering in my mind for years now.

Why is it that when a girl kiss a girl it’s not really a big
deal, but when a boy kiss a boy then its absurd, disgusting and gayish?

Please let me know what you think.

Couple of days ago i saw a man that looked like my late father. It shocked the living hell out of me!! Then he turned his head and it was a different person (of course), but that really caught me off my frikking guard.

Damn. When was the last time i feel that horrible, desperate, longing feeling?

Geez.

Wish my brother were here.

to ma surprise, ma blog causes quite a stir recently. comments are pouring in.

a good friend of mine told me that whatever they did to you, you shouldn’t bash people in public.  well… as hard as it is, in the end ihavetoadmitthathesright.

so… with that in mind, i deleted ma previous entry. and for the people that actually spare their time to comment in it, i thank you so very much. it really, really meant a lot for me.

catch you in ma other entries : )

the event occured on 5th, when the grades were announced and we have to dress like children as it was the dresscode… some went ultra creative, some went no difference but i just took a shortcut and wear elementary kid uniform. well. indeed the costume was ridiculous but i got an A, so there! hehehe!

i’m having my trial yesterday, on 23rd, for my final project. it’s not a painful bloodbath as i feared, but its not a gleaming victory either. i guess it’s a whatever then, hehehehe…

well no matter how it went, i don’t care, i’m just glad it’s done. i just need to do the revisions and then it’s gonna be official… hehehehe!

i’m sorry, i can not stop laughing…

anyway goodluck to my friends who has yet to face it. i’m sure you guys will do just marvelous…

looking forward to the farewell party!!

when you are always put on hold, harus selalu ngalah, and you can’t do anything about it cos you know you deserved it…. the pain is piercing and it hurts like nothing else…

love can be impossibly blinding.

well, what doesn’t kill you can only make you stronger, rite?

went to interview SID for the first draft of my final project on 25th of february. they’re very cooperative and unexpectedly nice, also i found their intelligence is extremely refreshing hehe. seriously.
the interview went well, in the company of a crate of bir bintang : D

the wisdom of Rudolf Dethu as now i will quote,
"Money can’t buy you love — but it can buy you Jim Beam.
And it’s good enough."

no shit. of course it’s good enough.